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Thursday, July 20, 2006

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 16:31:57 GMT

Well there isn't anything new going on surprise surprise......this summer hasn't really turned out how i wanted it to...Well first off we were supposed to go on vacation but now it doesn't look that way because of my dad he says ''we dont have the money'' although i know that we do..another thing is that i havent done anything that i wanted to do i mean first off i wanted to start working which i did do but now i wont be working anymore because the marina is closing so now i am going back to being broke again...another thing is there were so many people i was trying to make happy all at the same time and i guess that i couldn't do it because now i have Levi mad at me because he says i never do anything which he does have a point cuz i dont..I was trying to make my parents happy by not doing alot because they cant afford to give me gas money all the time because they are already too busy giving erika money all the time for things which i wont complain about cuz i did the same thing when i was her age...I just dont feel like i can win in this situation i mean Levi wants me to go and do things because i really dont do anything and he looks at it like erika does stuff all of the time so he knows my parents wont care if i do i mean i know that they wouldn't but its just i dont feel right asking them for money that i know they dont have.....there are more important things right now that alot of people dont know about and i just need to take care of things before i can have fun well peace

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 01:03:10 GMT

Must be your skin that I'm sinkin in
Must be for real cause now I can feel
and I didn't mind
it's not my kind
not my time to wonder why
everything's gone white
and everything's grey
now your here now you away
I don't want this
remember that
I'll never forget where your at
don't let the days go by
glycerine

I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
are you at one
or do you lie
we live in a wheel
where everyone steals
but when we rise it's like strawberry fields

If I treated you bad
you bruise my face
couldn't love you more
you got a beautiful taste
don't let the days go by
could have been easier on you
I coudn't change though I wanted to
could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me
glycerine (repeat)
don't let the days go by
glycerine

I needed you more
when we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
it might just be
clear simple and plain
that's just fine
that's just one of my names
don't let the days go by
could've been easier on you
glycerine

Someone in particular probably remembers that song..........

Everytime i hear that song it makes me think about the things that i have done and i actually have to admit there are alot of things that im not proud of doing but i guess that people have to make mistakes to learn anything right?..

Well i havent really been up to much lately i have an interview at the Piedomont marina on thursday from the way there talking all that i will be doing is walking around the lake and cabins making sure noone is drowning or fighting i mean it pays $8.50 an hour starting out so i guess it will be a pretty cool job.....Well i was hoping Levi would be online i really needed to talk to him about some things that have been going on lately..maybe he will read this and call me tommorrow....?

Thursday Night i have to stay all night at my aunts house cuz my uncle and her have to go stay in cleveland so my uncle can get a defibulator put on his heart...I dont understand why all of the bad things have to happen to the nicest people i think that it is bullshit that all the fucking retards of the world live a full healthy life and all the people who would give you the shirt off there back just to help you out always get fucked out of things....All that i have to say is Screw all of you stupid mother fuckers who go out and do stupid shit to impress people or to have 5minutes of fun..And also fuck you mother fuckers who go out driving when your drunk or have been drinking think about other people for a chance cuz nobody gives a shit if you stupid fucks die all that i have to say is if your going to do stupid shit like that and you end up getting paralyzed for life but the person you hit dies you deserve everything bad that ever happens to you because you should have been the one that died not the person who you hit that was on there way home from work to a family...

Well this has been a really long entry and i dont know where alot of it came from but to all of my friends leave me some comments and to all you stupid fucks out there let the hate mail roll on in......

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 12:28:47 GMT

Well things have been going good up until last night.....I dont know what it was but it made me think of the fact that i feel like i am wasting this summer i mean i really need to get a better job cuz i dont really like working for my family anymore it just seems to complicate things even more than they would be if i wasn't working with them..well my last few days of school went pretty well and i cant help but wonder who our teacher will be next year hmmmm..oh well i dont really care..At the beginning of this year i wanted to go to school for criminal justice but as the year went on and i realized that my senior year is coming up i dont think im sure what i want to do....I mean i like the whole criminal justice field and i think it would suit me pretty well but when i think about it i dont know if it is a job that i would like to have or just some childish fantasy....i dont know>?

Well im at my gma's right now i have to start working here in a little bit oh well lol i need money anyways lol haha well i was planning on staying the entire week but i realized i need to get my stuff done and quit being so lazy and go turn in some more applications..so i think i will get all my work done today or most of it anyways and then after that i will more than likely go home tommorow and go job hunting haha funny sounding isn't it lol well that is all that i wanted for now but im gonna go now so leave me some comments peace

Cory

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Sun, 14 May 2006 15:36:59 GMT

Well it looks like its time to update i have been on here for awhile and i have something to say this time well where to start lol.........well first off school is almost out and usually about this time of year i get excited but for some reason this year im not really excited...I mean next year i will be a senior which is cool and all for some people but i dont think that i am ready to graduate yet...For more than one reason i mean first off i dont want to be one of those people who after they graduate never amount to anything besides a manager job at a fast food resteraunt which we have alot of around here.I actually want to make something out of myself but i thought i was sure before but now i just dont know anymore...I am actually scared of the real world right now...i mean first off it seems like the class of 2007 just gets fucked out of everything..for example we were the first class to have to take the ogt as soon as my class got into highschool everything started changing for the school rules in the state of ohio and i think its stupid but now when my class graduates more than likely the economy is still going to be really bad and all of us are going to have a hard time finding jobs no matter where we go...Some of you are more than likely thinking well im going to college i dont need a job well yes you do cuz you need to pay tuition and also you will more than likely need gas money...unless your mommy and daddy are going to do everything for you which some of you who dont go to college will never move out of your mom's house and will eventually turn out to be some poor mother fucker on the side of the street thinking the reason why your poor is everyone else's fault when in reality its nobody's fault but your own...and you know what im the type of person who would probably throw you some change just cuz i feel sorry for how stupid and lazy you really are and if you dont end up being poor thats because you have to mooch off of the entire united states raisin taxes because one more lazy son of a bitch is getting a welfare check......well i really need to get back on subject..isn't it funny just when you think you have your life figured out reality comes and slaps you in the face and you realize you really arent sure what your job is going to be when you get out of highschool...i just wish that i knew someone who was going through this exact same thing right now so i could talk with them about it.......................

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 22:41:23 GMT

Hey everyone not much up with me lately i havent updated in a really long time haha...

Been busy with things lately.....well school is almost out that is a good thing i guess im gonna be pretty busy this summer with work and everything ima be workin for my dad things with me and him have been kinda weird for the last month or so it seems like he just doesn't want to talk to me and when i try to talk to him he just sits there like he is stoned or something.....oh well i dont care..

Well this weekend i have been working on my research paper and its a pain in the ass...

This summer im going to go to the gym and lift weights so i can stay in shape for next school year....

well i know there wasn't very much here but im gonna go

Isn't it funny how when you try to start talking to people again you always seem too remember why you stopped talking to them in the first place i mean all of the things that made you hate them the first time....Im about done forgiving people fuck that shit.......Peace

Cory

Monday, February 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 23:02:43 GMT

well updating again not saying anything this time.....

got in my car today and saw a condom on my windshield wiper......Kenny you wait mother fucker i'll get you back lmfao...

Starting to talk to some old friends again kinda wierd...........

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 23:26:23 GMT

Wow updating two days in a row i dont really have much to say right now.....

Today went to the movies with Megan....Erika......and Kelly........Then went to petland for no apparent reason well thats all really lol haha bye..

I think that im actually maturing......

In Loving Memory

You were always home waiting
But now I come home
and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
that sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
cause it comforts me

I carry the things
that remind me of you
In loving memory of
the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you’re gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was-to be alone....no
Cause you were always
there for me
You were always home waiting
But now I
come home and it’s not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I just can’t believe you’re gone

And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
that sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
cause it comforts me

I’m glad He set you free from sorrow
but I’ll still love you more tomorrow
and you’ll be here
with me still
All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You’re a part of me
And it’s your song
that sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can’t hold on
I sing tonight
cause it comforts me

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 13:05:15 GMT

Hey Everyone its been a long time since i have updated this thing hasnt it lol haha oh well.

I have been busy lately Vocational school is awesome i like it alot up there.

Nothing really happened last night me and my dad went over to Dans and i played guitar with Dan for awhile and my dad was just bull shitting with him.

Im still with Megan things are going pretty good so far. Found out last night that Levi found himself a women ''Bout Damn Time'' lmfao haha.

Gotta Get a Job Sometime dunno when though prolly in about a month or so.........

If you were all alone in the universe with no one to talk to, no one with which to share the beauty of the stars, to laugh with, to touch, what would be your purpose in life? It is other life, it is love, which gives your life meaning. This is harmony. We must discover the joy of each other, the joy of challenge, the joy of growth.

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.

Don't waste life in doubts and fears; spend yourself on the work before you, well assured that the right performance of this hour's duties will be the best preparation for the hours and ages that will follow it.

Well everyone there are a few quotes to live by i'll tell you they have helped me alot well im gonna go so every it was nice updating again i will do it again sometime haha well goodbye for now..................

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 16:59:40 GMT

Hey everyone how are all of you today im alright havent updated in awhile dont really got much to say really....

Im at levi's right now dont know what were gonna do prolly something stupid like always i kinda have a tendency to do stupid shit..........well i got my hair all cut off the other day now my fuckin ears get cold!!! this is gonna have to be a short entry cuz i dont know what to say but i do got something else to say levi and erika need to quit leaving me fifty comments cuz it pisses me the fuck off and if they do it again i am gonna block them sons a bitches ok well thats all for now i will edit this later so peace

Cory

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 01:40:51 GMT

Hey Well i guess its time to update......hmmmm well wats new? Well first off i dont remember what i put in my last post so if anything is repeated then deal with it lmfao haha j.k.............. Well school this week was pretty good everything went really fast and we didnt have any school yesterday so that was good..i was kinda hoping that we wouldn't have school today either but we did anyways so that sucked. Today at school was really boring nothing very interesting happened i still have the fastest time on the opstical course thingy ''15seconds'' i cant really believe that to tell the truth cuz i always thought i was slow lol haha but i have gotten alot faster since i have been going to school up there from the running that we do i am actually in alot better shape than i was before..well lets recap my week..first off Monday did nothing megan came over after school and all we did was lay around and watch movies..Tuesday we did nothing i went to megans after school and talked to her for awhile then i got sick and went to bed early..Wednsday i went to megans until my sisters choir concert thing then i went to that with my mom..for me not being away from trail for well not even a year yet people are really amazed by me haha everyone is like if you get any bigger ur going to rip ur shirt lmfao haha funny shit actually i guess from what they told me i have gotten alot bigger than i was last year..Thursday i did nothing at all at my house and then today well you already heard about it and now im sitting on this computer because im bored as fuck tomorrow im going shopping for people's christmas shit which i hate cuz shopping is for fags haha well thats all i got for today so i will update again eventually and wait i forgot one more thing Levi Williams likes to sleep with fat chicks lol haha well peace

Cory