Well there isn't anything new going on surprise surprise......this summer hasn't really turned out how i wanted it to...Well first off we were supposed to go on vacation but now it doesn't look that way because of my dad he says ''we dont have the money'' although i know that we do..another thing is that i havent done anything that i wanted to do i mean first off i wanted to start working which i did do but now i wont be working anymore because the marina is closing so now i am going back to being broke again...another thing  is there were so many people i was trying to make happy all at the same time and i guess that i couldn't do it because now i have Levi mad at me because he says i never do anything which he does have a point cuz i dont..I was trying to make my parents happy by not doing alot because they cant afford to give me gas money all the time because they are already too busy giving erika money all the time for things which i wont complain about cuz i did the same thing when i was her age...I just dont feel like i can win in this situation i mean Levi wants me to go and do things because i really dont do anything and he looks at it like erika does stuff all of the time so he knows my parents wont care if i do i mean i know that they wouldn't but its just i dont feel right asking them for money that i know they dont have.....there are more important things right now that alot of people dont know about and i just need to take care of things before i can have fun well peace

Currently Listening Sixteen Stone By Bush ''Glycerine'' see related

Must be your skin that I'm sinkin in
Must be for real cause now I can feel
and I didn't mind
it's not my kind
not my time to wonder why
everything's gone white
and everything's grey
now your here now you away
I don't want this
remember that
I'll never forget where your at
don't let the days go by
glycerine

I'm never alone
I'm alone all the time
are you at one
or do you lie
we live in a wheel
where everyone steals
but when we rise it's like strawberry fields

If I treated you bad
you bruise my face
couldn't love you more
you got a beautiful taste
don't let the days go by
could have been easier on you
I coudn't change though I wanted to
could have been easier by three
our old friend fear and you and me
glycerine (repeat)
don't let the days go by
glycerine

I needed you more
when we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
it might just be
clear simple and plain
that's just fine
that's just one of my names
don't let the days go by
could've been easier on you
glycerine

Someone in particular probably remembers that song..........

Everytime i hear that song it makes me think about the things that i have done and i actually have to admit there are alot of things that im not proud of doing but i guess that people have to make mistakes to learn anything right?..

Well i havent really been up to much lately i have an interview at the Piedomont marina on thursday from the way there talking all that i will be doing is walking around the lake and cabins making sure noone is drowning or fighting i mean it pays $8.50 an hour starting out so i guess it will be a pretty cool job.....Well i was hoping Levi would be online i really needed to talk to him about some things that have been going on lately..maybe he will read this and call me tommorrow....?

Thursday Night i have to stay all night at my aunts house cuz my uncle and her have to go stay in cleveland so my uncle can get a defibulator put on his heart...I dont understand why all of the bad things have to happen to the nicest people i think that it is bullshit that all the fucking retards of the world live a full healthy life and all the people who would give you the shirt off there back just to help you out always get fucked out of things....All that i have to say is Screw all of you stupid mother fuckers who go out and do stupid shit to impress people or to have 5minutes of fun..And also fuck you mother fuckers who go out driving when your drunk or have been drinking think about other people for a chance cuz nobody gives a shit if you stupid fucks die all that i have to say is if your going to do stupid shit like that and you end up getting paralyzed for life but the person you hit dies you deserve everything bad that ever happens to you because you should have been the one that died not the person who you hit that was on there way home from work to a family...

Well this has been a really long entry and i dont know where alot of it came from but to all of my friends leave me some comments and to all you stupid fucks out there let the hate mail roll on in......

Currently Listening Undoing Ruin By Darkest Hour ''7'' see related

Well things have been going good up until last night.....I dont know what it was but it made me think of the fact that i feel like i am wasting this summer i mean i really need to get a better job cuz i dont really like working for my family anymore it just seems to complicate things even more than they would be if i wasn't working with them..well my last few days of school went pretty well and i cant help but wonder who our teacher will be next year hmmmm..oh well i dont really care..At the beginning of this year i wanted to go to school for criminal justice but as the year went on and i realized that my senior year is coming up i dont think im sure what i want to do....I mean i like the whole criminal justice field and i think it would suit me pretty well but when i think about it i dont know if it is a job that i would like to have or just some childish fantasy....i dont know>?

Well im at my gma's right now i have to start working here in a little bit oh well lol i need money anyways lol haha well i was planning on staying the entire week but i realized i need to get my stuff done and quit being so lazy and go turn in some more applications..so i think i will get all my work done today or most of it anyways and then after that i will more than likely go  home tommorow and go job hunting haha funny sounding isn't it lol well that is all that i wanted for now but im gonna go now so leave me some comments peace

Cory

Hey everyone not much up with me lately i havent updated in a really long time haha...

Been busy with things lately.....well school is almost out that is a good thing i guess im gonna be pretty busy this summer with work and everything ima be workin for my dad things with me and him have been kinda weird for the last month or so it seems like he just doesn't want to talk to me and when i try to talk to him he just sits there like he is stoned or something.....oh well i dont care..

Well this weekend i have been working on my research paper and its a pain in the ass...

This summer im going to go to the gym and lift weights so i can stay in shape for next school year....

well i know there wasn't very much here but im gonna go

                  Isn't it funny how when you try to start talking to people again you always seem too remember why you stopped talking to them in the first place i mean all of the things that made you hate them the first time....Im about done forgiving people fuck that shit.......Peace

Cory